GAH WHAT THE FUCK AM I TRYING TO DO, PICKING MYSELF UP AFTER MY FAILURE IN SECONDARY SCHOOL, LYING TO MYSELF, TRYING TO MAKE MYSELF HAPPY. WHO AM I LYING TO? I'M LYING TO MYSELF!

MY LIFE SUCKS. IT HAS ALWAYS SUCKED, AND IT WILL ALWAYS BE. I'M SO TIRED OF TRYING TO MAKE THINGS BETTER, ONLY TO HAVE IT CRUSHED. I'M TIRED OF THIS. I'M TIRED OF WORKING WITH RIDICULOUSLY STUPID LIMITATIONS.

I WANT TO END MY LIFE. I. AM. SUCH. A. FAILIURE.